Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Foot Fetish

My Version of Foot Fetish
My little attempt at painting my toe nails. I wonder how people do it properly. I was contorting my body just to make a mess outta my toes. I just bought myself some cheap nail polish in Hong Kong and thought I try it out. Kept telling myself, LONG STROKES, LONG STROKES. My foot (no pun intended). My little pinky toe nail is so tiny how to long strokes?!?! Now I understand why people pay money to get things like this done. Besides, its not like I have really beautiful feet.

Well, that's all folks.

And No, I don't have a foot fetish.

Tuesday, May 24, 2005

Hong Kong. Discover it

My sincere apologies for not checking in any sooner. Work has been really overwhelming. But! There is light at the end of the tunnel afterall. After 3 months of planning, I am finally seeing the event come to shape. Currently, in Hong Kong now and my event is truly taking place. The pre-con (pre-conference) is already occuring. Next door to where I am at the moment actually. And by Thursday evening, I am truly done! Yipee!!!!! I can't wait for that to happen. So excited. Yet I will be kinda sad to see the event come to a close. (Confused Child). The adrenaline rush no more.

Now. Hong Kong. I LOVE IT!!! Even though I havent really been around. Just travelling between Hyatt (where Im staying) and Hotel Intercontinental (where my event is). But I really really love what I am seeing. It's exactly what I pictured in my mind from all the movies I have watched. Hope blacks and I can save enough money to come again in December. Winter would be fun cos can parade in all the sweater and can BUY JACKETS!!!! But this city is amazing, just being here I can feel its resilient. Like nothing can ever bring it down. Yet within such a fine city there is so much normalities and complexities. Am I making sense? Dunno....But I love Hong Kong!!!!

Friday, May 20, 2005

I'm sure you would too

03 Jan 05. My admin specialist, CPL MAURICE, handed me a tin and asked me to donate some much-appreciated money for the victims of the ill-fated Tsunami. I remembered distinctively mumbling to myself,” If only we can do more…”

Moments later, MAURICE returned and said: “Sir, you COULD actually do more…” I made some enquires to the Manpower Branch and around 1630 hours, I received a call from my Wing Commander, LTC CHANDRA, informing me that my request has been granted. At that moment, I do not know the magnitude of SAF’s commitment to this humanitarian effort. I was just happy to be selected, to represent the SAF, to represent the nation.

Suddenly it dawned upon me. Wait, what about the cadet’s training? What about my family? Afterall, my dad had just suffered a stroke. I immediately called my dad and spoke to him. Understanding me, my dad gave me his blessings.

I attended the mission brief the following day. It included other presentations such as insurance talk and psychological talk of dead bodies, bloated and highly decomposed. The mission brief, to be honest, was sketchy and wasn’t very informative. It was at this juncture that apprehension starts to set in. Mission wise, I was still very unclear of what is expected of me. What I s my task? What am I suppose to pack? Where will I be heading? All I know at this stage is that SAF will be operating from 3 bases in Sumatra, Banda Aceh, Meulaboh and Medan. That was just about the only information that I have.

That, and that I will be flying off in 8 hours time: 5 Jan, 0430 hours.

I rushed back SAFTI and started packing. It was helter–skelter. Good thing that the Wing was in out-field training. There was at least some peace and quiet as I go about packing. My Wing Commander called me and enquired if I needed any help. He had, in the meantime, sent the Wing’s CQMS back to Wingline and instructed him to allow me to “plunder” whatever I require from the store. Although I didn’t wait till the CQMS arrival, that simple gesture was very much appreciated.

At approximately 2000 hours that day, I got a call from the Ops Center in Singapore as I was having dinner with my family. Flight’s been delayed for 24 hours. New Showtime? 06 Jan 0430 hrs. I heave a sigh of relief. Finally some time to slow down and catch my breath, some time to check if whatever I have packed is necessary.

The flight was later delayed AGAIN and I later learnt that it was because the airport was not operational as an aircraft ran over a cow on the runway. It just confirms the madness that’s there doesn’t it?

When am I going? Am I even going at all? Do I WANT to go? Can I afford to just pack my bags and leave?

I remember an article I read in Straits times a couple of years ago about, then, COL NEO KIAN HONG. I remember distinctively how the article started:

“Twenty Four hours. That was all the time Colonel Neo Kian Hong had to pack his bags and say goodbye to his wife and two younger sons in September”

As I ponder over my predicament and thinking of how better off I am compared to BG NEO, and at the same time recall in awe BG NEO’s dedication and commitment to the job, time slowly crept by and it finally came. I was in PLAB waiting to board C-130 to Indonesia. I saw many old friends from 7 SIB whom I hadn’t met in a long while. Many exchanged information they gathered from friends who are already “in there”. Many spoke the tale of foul smell from bloated bodies and involuntary vomit.

Where am I heading? What is expected of me? What’s the deployment duration? Mission unspoken destination unknown… classic.

I ended up in SAF Contingent HQ in Medan, together with the Forward Support Group and the heli-Detachment Crew. We were put up in Novotel Hotel, This can’t be right can it? I was in heaven compared to my fellow countrymen who are working flat out in Banda Aceh and Meulaboh.

The set up was like a division exercise and I was the Watch Officer. I hadn’t been involved in any division exercise before and I do not know the specific TOR. Everyone seems busy with their work and there wasn’t an upper study whom I can learn from. I guess no one in theatre has an upper study to learn from.

The relief effort, however, was unlike real military operations. Progress was much slower, and majority of the work centered on the Engineer’s effort in laying the groundwork and setting up the foundations for the subsequent take over of operations by NGOs. This included establishing beach landings and land links, clearing roads of debris and accommodations for IDPs. As such, forces in-theatre was slowly thinned down. I was back on 20 Jan, having spent 12 days there.

It was heart warming to craft the daily OpSum that schools are re-opening and market places are sprouting. Although personnel in Contingent HQ wasn’t on site physically to experience the hustle and bustle of the market place, the euphoria we experience in Medan was no less diluted because we coordinated the relief effort. We knew we played our part.


One of the reasons why I signed on as an Army Regular 8 years ago, without sounding too benevolent, was to effect positive changes in people’s life. I think, in this instance, I have made the life of many others better.

Having been back for a good 5 months, and having some time to reflect of what happened, I must admit that when I volunteered, I didn’t put much though into the decision. But if I were thrown in to the very same situation, would I have decided against going? I guess not. I would still have gone. I am sure many amongst us would have gone and done likewise.

I’m sure you would too.

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Tiredness

2 days no sleep is no joke
No Zzz no snores and no coke
Tired I am and he's not here
Where I dunno and do not hear
From him so now I wait again
for him to tell me so I can regain
some needed rest and some sleep
if not then i rather off the building i leap

Sleepy

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Labour Day Loooong Weekend

My apologies for not checking in lately. Few reasons; 1. Work has been really hectic. 2. Blacks and I are recovering from a rough patch. 3. The computer is acting up on me again.

Its May already. I dunno if I should be saying time flies. In less than 1 month, I would be done with my current job and hope that I was find my next learning platform soon. Reflections about my 'first' job will come shortly. June 1st. Check in then. But it's May. I wonder what happened to the past 4 months. Half the year is coming and soon going. What have I really done in the past 4 months? In some way, I think I have made a difference in my own life. I kinda became financially independent, although now that I haven't gotten my paycheck yet...pockets are kinda tight. Blacks and I took our first step to fulfilling our dream of owning our own house by opening our joint account. I gave my colleague some pretty good advice about her own career path (I hope at least). And I hope I was there for my sister whose significant other was away.

This afternoon, I heard the world's shortest but funniest poem. I pride myself as the rhyming queen, and when I heard this man tried to rhyme on television I nearly died. It was the ridiculous programme 'Wife swap' where ridiculous couples need to swap wives in order to realise how much they love their own. This man had to write a love poem for his wife under the orders of the "new wife" and this is what he came up with.

1st draft
Roses are red, violets are blue
I wish that you are here.

2nd draft
Roses are red, violets are blue
I wish that you are here to share my blues
You're my wife
You're my life
Amen
PS. I love you.

His first draft made E-Chiing and I laugh so hard it hurts....So here, I am gonna give it a shot and see if i can do better than him

Roses are red, violets are blue
I wish we will forever be stuck like glue
I love the way you wear your hair
I love the way you smell the air
I can't do without you
For you are my wife
You represent my life
Amen
PS. I love you.

For Blacks.
Thanks for the magnificent weekend we share
For good for bad together we'll bear
Thanks for the talk when you open up to me
We share our problems and our troubles to be
Thanks for the laughters I had because of you
Playing koala, magnet and super glue
Thanks for everything and more to come
For I know with you I will never have some
I will have all, everything and nothing less
You give unconditionally and don't charge cess!

It's a new day tomorrow babes....Love you and sweet dreams.