For Once.

For once, on Sunday, I lost control
For once, I took it out on my computer
For once, I couldn't stop crying
For once, I wish I never need to wake
For once, I can't stick a smile on my face
For once, I can't see the end of the rainbow
For once, I reached out to my sister and cried out for help
For once, I saw my baby helpless for he couldn't help me
For once, I just want to take off and leave everything behind
For once, I feel like the weight of the entire world rest on my shoulders
For once, I want to be someone else
For once, til now, I can't hold my tears
For once, I feel immense emotional stress
For once, I really wish someone tells me what to do
For once, I hear my sister say she has never heard me so down
For once, my baby tells me its not worth seeing me this way
For once, I truly doubt myself
For once, I can't see light at the end of the tunnel.

I seek solace. I need peace.