Sunday, October 28, 2012

Blaecks + 1 : Parenthood Week 1

We past the first week of parenthood! *clap clap*

I want so much to say this next "In the past week, we laughed, we cried, we had ups and we had downs" but in all honesty, it has been mostly ups, mostly laughs and all too surreal still. Well at least for me.

Blacks says he wonders what goes through the grandparent's mind when they stare at Baby Boy and smile. I said Im not sure, but I'm at the point when I look at Baby Boy, I still find it all to surreal. I can't believe that we made him, I carried him for 9 months, I was in labour for 12 hours and we have had him in our lives, almost not being able to remember what was it like before he came. On a Sunday afternoon, what would the Blaecks be doing without Baby Boy? Seems as though someone turned the program button in us overnight such that our schedule automatically wrapped itself around the feeding schedule of Baby Boy. Oh yeah, not forgetting the "pumping" schedule of Mummy Eck.

This week, 2 long time family friends came to visit and Ang Moh said to me "I can't believe the little shit is a mum." Ditto to that. I can't believe it myself. I think many people can't believe it either....

Well, a week down and a lifetime more to come. But kudos to the Blaecks for surviving the first week...!

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Blaeck + 1 = Parenthood Day 4

Like all parents say "sleeping babies are like angels, awake babies are like lucifer", Adam is no different. In his 4 day on this planet, he has made up his mind on crying for no rhyme or reason. 1 hour of crying fit this morning sent the Blaecks into total confusion. What is it that you want?!

Then again, what can we complain about? This little man slept soundly from 11.30pm to 4.45am, giving us a good enough rest as well. So I suppose its a thank you?

On the breast front, I made a little progress. Though my boobs are sore and cracked, I expressed A LOT more milk today. Still supplementing with formula and no shame there, I rather be a happy mummy than a stressed out one. But one step forward and two steps back, engorgement has started and though I though I found myself to be so happy being able to lie on my stomach again today, MY BOOBS HURT!!!!

Blacks continue to amaze me with his paternal instincts. He's such a good husband and a awesome awesome dad.


Blaecks + 1 : Parenthood Day 3

9 months of gestation complete with the weight gain, morning sickness, backache and swollen feet, a 3.26kg baby boy came out of me on 19 October 2012 at 8.19pm after 8.5hrs of labour (complete with 10 fingers, 10 toes, 2 eyes, 1 nose, 2 ears and 1 mouth - as counted by the nurse).

Its day 3 of parenthood for the Blaecks and we have completely no idea what to do nor what to expect. One Army Major and One Marketing Manager surrender to this not yet educated, unable to speak nor fend for himself little Baby Adam. We wonder what every little whimper is about, what is going through his mind what most importantly, what's coming up next.

Regrettably, I haven't had that magical moment where I look at Adam and the maternal instinct in my switches on. Of course that isn't to say I don't love my son. I do...a lot and I am amazed that he is a product of the love the Blaecks share. But maybe the pragmatic side of me wonders really, what's gonna happen now?

Through the whole 3 days experience, I am however, extremely amazed by Blacks. I think his paternal instincts switched on the moment Adam came out. He's so gentle, so patient and you can tell he will literally shield his son from the perils of the world. (He even laughed as he got the peed-on initiation this evening!). If anything at all, the last 3 days has solidified by love for my husband and "renewed" our wedding vows.