Have I changed?

Now, this is a question posed to people closed to me. Especially my sisters, Jess, Audrey and Huru. Have I changed? Physically? Mentally? In some ways I hope so (especially my boobs getting bigger). I look at some of the pictures taking in secondary school and I can't believe I look that way and wore the most unfashionable clothes.

Baggy jeans that does no flattering to my ass.
T-shirts with prints that has no meaning whatsoever
Shoes that just doesn't go with anything.

But then again, I still have very little shoes now because of the lack of cash. But what was I thinking!!!! What were WE thinking when we cut that funny hairdo just to do something out of the ordinary, bought those clothes some outta impluse, and actually wearing them out? Sure it was fashionable in those days, but we should have known better. Its really trial and error huh?

Fashion for me hasnt come quite a long way...Im still quite the plain colours jeans and t-shirt kinda gal. But I must admit that I have been intrigued and interested in bolder designs. When I do have money, I am going WILD.

Ill leave now then....and wait for another 5-6 years where I look at my photos now and again wonder what possess me to wear what I wore.

Sonic the Hedge-Head!

Guess who is that?? From the 'fantastic model-like' figure, and the professional stance, of course its me lah! Finish yet again 1 more show, Communicasia 2005. Made some new accquintances, strengthed some friendships and most of all, had plenty of fun while doing all that! Plus, I found the phone for me but Im sure its gonna cost a nuclear bomb. I know the term is 'cost a bomb' but with all the bombings and sucide bombers nowadays, it seems pretty cheap to make a bomb. Now its the nuclears that are expensive.

Here, then would like to say a big thank you to Debbie and Shireen for the opportunity. And Mr Ahmed for making me days at Communic all the more interesting. BETRAYAL! DIVORCE.

Haha personal joke.

Some Serious Thoughts

I just wanna input a little of my thoughts before I again busy myself with another project. Im helping my friend Shireen at the Panasonic booth in Communicasia 2005 and would firstly like to thank her for giving me the opportunity. Not only that I need the money, I really like doing operational work. Quite fun.

This whole of last week has been one of many concerns. But my greatest concern is over someone who is so dear to me that I wanna protect the person in every means possible. Someone a little more senior than me but going through some rough times and I hope the person comes out a stronger person. The person has always been a fighter, a survivor but I feel the responsibility to protect. I am however a little disappointed that from the begining of problems, I wasn't the first person he/she came to for help. I admit, I might not have been available for her, too caught up with my own life. But he/she should know that no matter what happens, I will drop everything and listen. But I guess, the choice of who he/she wants to talk to is his/hers. Along the same lines, I want only the best for him/her and I can't help but feel that the path he/she is treading upon now is not the most ideal. Emotional support is great and love really don't keep people alive. I wish for someone to be able to take care of you, emotional as well as financially. I just don't want him/her at the end of the day turn around and think 'yes, it might have been a great one. But where do I go from here?' as the numbers that represent his/her age is not decreasing. With that, I am a little mad at a friend who is relentless. Though I have never doubted my friend genunity in the situation, I am a little aggitated by the forefrontness. Does my friend not see the secrecy of the situation and that it has been raising questions? Besides, its really pissing me off because it seems like a betrayal to what has been claimed 'not and won't happen'. Should be MYOB-ing? Am I thinking too much? I just want to help.

Finances has been on my mind lately as well. With my finishing of the contract at my company. I have no income and as everyone knows job hunting is not easy. I hope money comes in soon. I really wanna help Blacks in some way or another.

Oh well, there is some light at the end of the tunnel. It filled my heart with so much joy seeing my dear friend iGeek's face lit up when the phone rang. That was when a certain person was in town visiting. Although again I hear the claims of 'no its not and it won't happen', I reminded her to keep her doors open. You might never know what fate has in store for you. Besides, I told her with Blacks, I also thought 'no he doesn't like me lah!'. Look at us now. INSEPERABLE.

To my dearest Jessie, so great to finally have a chat with you online the other day. Can't wait for you to come back in August and I promise a wild wild time. It would be like before. BUT BIGGER BETTER AND WILDER. Although we now need to sit and rest every 15 mins when we go shopping, it will still be BIGGER BETTER AND WILDER. We'll figure something out. *winks*

And lastly, to my DA JIE. Miss talking to you and hope you can make a trip back to home sometime in the near future. REMEMBER TO RENT YOUR PLACE TO YOU KNOW WHAT.

I hope noone is offended with what is on my blog. There are somethings that I really wanna say but I am a little confrontation avoidance.

Apologies.

Can you spot the NOT?

What is wrong with the drawer???? For those who have sharp eyes. Yes I broke the drawer. Me! 23 year old weighing in at only 45kg (lie.) Me! Like E-Chiing will say, I have "jing gang shou" which matches Blacks who have "Jing Gang Jiao". But I swear this breaking of the drawer thing is purely an accident. Or a stupidity on my part. Lemme narrate the story,

In the midst of my anime

I notice with big dismay

That my table was messy

With a hole puncher and mousie

So i decided to clear the puncher

And hide it in the drawer

But I found out later, that drawer can't open

For the puncher was stuck

I pulled and pulled and tried various ways

Only short of asking Jay (Chow)

And finally I drew the drawer

But broke the drawer door.