Hey buddy. I feel like you now. Its 11.10pm and I am hungry.

How issit where you are? I still see your picture on my computer wallpaper everyday and my heart no longer ache as much but I still miss you. Sometimes I wonder if I had brought you over to live with me if it would be better. Wondering if you would have lived longer.

But I guess its too late to think about it now.

Remember how I changed your diet to a vegetarian diet? I would cook a meal worth 3 days for you and Vicky. Smash potatoes, mince meat pie, fried rice....Ill never have the chance to cook for you every again. Maybe in our next life time together? Im so glad you were never picky with food and even though we complain how a big glutton you are, im sure we all wish you are still around to pick off the floor.

I miss you buddy. One day, we shall dine together once more.

Love you.

Hey buddy. Remember the time Echiing brought back a little sick kitten? We were staying at Waterloo then and she found the kitten with a bloated tummy. It was already late in the evening and we were sure what to do at that time.

Chiing and I put the little kitten in a box. We tried to feed it make but it wouldnt take, we tried water but also failed. It was then decided that we will wait til morning before we bring it to a vet.

The whole night you sat beside the little kitten. When you lean forward to sniff it, we were so scared that you will bite it but you stick out that pink tongue and gave it a big lick. Then you sat beside it again and everytime the cat whispered the slightest mew, you ran to me, stared at me and ran back out. If I didnt follow you, you ran back to my room, stared at me again and whine.

That night you didnt sleep in my room. Instead, you took your place beside the little kitten and you gave it love.

Poor thing didnt survive to see the break of dawn and when we woke, the kitten was already a stiffy. But you kept your place, not moving an inch.

You were with little kitty til her very last breath. I am so glad I was able to be with you at your last breaths as well. Im really sorry for not holding my place beside you all the time but you are always in my heart.

Always. And Forever.

I miss you buddy, still so very much and I still have this sourish feeling when I think of you.

Dont ever forget me ok? I will never forget you.

Hey buddy. Is there haze where you are? The air is so polluted here, making it so hard to breathe but it finally rained this morning. It brought a little breeze but its still hot.

Was looking at some of Aless's photos and saw one of him lying on the same pillow as Tiger. I thought of you. I remember once Elin was home and you were sleeping on your pillow. She crawled towards you wanting to disturb your sleep but ended up falling asleep on your pillow!!! The funniest thing was that you woke up, annoyed by her "sharing" your pillow, and walked away. Echiing and I was rolling in laughter, looking at Elin sleep on your pillow. Its not exactly the cleanest eh?

Joe, its been almost a week since you left. But I still see you every night when I close my eyes. I still think about you and our time together.

Do you think of me?

Remember we used to share food? It started with you picking from my fingers and then you took straight from my mouth. Disgusting from some but it was a bond between you and me. But I stopped after you bit my lip one evening in the midst of your excitement. My lip split and swell and for the next couple days. Chiing laughed and did the "serve you right" and I scolded you.

But look at your face. How long can I stay angry with you for.....

Maybe I should have brought you to Punggol with me. Maybe it would have prolong your life. Maybe maybe maybe.

Ten years we have been together. Noone can take your place in my heart. And hopefully one day, we will meet again. I love you buddy.

I remember once something made me really upset. Noone was at home and I was crying like there's no tomorrow.

You came, sat next to me and started licking my tears away. Then, I thought its the greedy you wanting to taste my salty tears, but I know its because you love me and wanted to cheer me up. I remember it did, you brought a smile to my face.

Now, thinking of times like this makes my heart ache and a sting to my eyes. But noone here to lick away my tears anymore.

I miss you buddy.

This is one heartache I wish for noone.

You were born on 26 December 1997.

We werent there to witness your birth but not long after, you went to Lin's home. To become a Wee.

I remember the first time we met. You were carried out of the gate by a man. Poor you, had to endure a 8 hour flight in a small space. Chiing put the collar and leash on you and you came home with us.

Your first home was Waterloo. It was 1999 and I was entering polytechnic.

And even though I was so excited to meet you and fell in love at first sight, I played it cool. Letting you explore the house on your own.

"If you pat your bed means you allow him up". Chiing told me.

I pat my bed hestitantly. And you jumped up, wagged your tail at me and sat down.

You slept with me from that day on. Sometimes at the foot of my bed, sometimes on my left. Always under my covers, curled up into a ball. And when i move to much, you fidget and sigh, like Ive disturbed your sleep.

Im sorry if I did. Wish you were at my foot once more.

Miss you so much.