My test.....

I think whoever is higher up there is testing whether I am qualified to be someone's wife.

'Through the good times and the bad.
Sickness and in health
Til death do us part....'

My test this time is sickness.....Blacks has been running a high fever for 2 straight days and I as the adoring woman...is running high and low, trying to bring his fever down and tending to his every needs....

I think i pass.....but must wait for the official results to come out when he gets better....

Have you ever wondered?

I guess now, besides from my beloved Dad and Mum, everyone who needs to know knows that I am getting married to the love of my life. 30th December is the date. Beaufort is the place. And Blacks and I, are the stars of the show. As we prepare for the wedding and our lives to come. My mind begin to wonder.

Have you every wondered who attracts you and who you are attracted to?
Is there a prototype, a single type of person that attracts you? As my eyes glazed at the man who is lying beside me in bed, I see a different side of him from everyone. To me, he is a gentle man of few words, funny and sometimes a bit childish yet lovable and dotes on me. To others, he is a stern firm man of few words, serious and mature. Sometimes, I dunno why I'm drawn to him. I dunno why I love him so much. And I dunno why he loves me so. I cried the night he told me he wanted to marry me. I cried happy tears for I din know that we would really one day be married. The day I told him I was surprise we were actually getting married because we talk about it so much I always thought we would be one of those couple that simply talk about it. He replied in the most non-chalently of ways, he said to me that I don;t know how much he wants to marry me. My heart stopped. I gasped my breath as my eyes felt a stinging sensation. I love him. I love him very very much and YES I DO!

Have you ever wondered whether the saying 'a rainbow after a storm' is true and applicable to life?
To me I think its true. I am experiencing it now. I was riding on a rainbow last year when I worked at PICO, after enduring a storm of unemployment. Then this year, I rided out the storm of C*****S storm and now I am finally reaping the benefits. I got a new job!!!!

Have you ever wondered what it takes to make a person smile?
I made 2 people smile today. The birthday gift that E-Chiing and I bought for E-Lin's birthday has reached her 1 week early. We bought her a sexy lingerie to aid in her birth-making. I received a word of thanks for my dear dear brother-in-law who seems happier receiving the gift than E-Lin, I was told.

Have you ever wondered whether you can hurt your eardrum?
Well, my dad has apparently done so, puncturing his eardrum on his flight back from Hattyai. Now, he is walking around with some cotton wool in his ear because the 'direct' sound actually makes his ear hurt.

Have you ever wondered what actually goes on in an animal's head?
Aren't we all still figuring that out.

- Love...a wife to be....me

I am Dumble-ly-dore!!!

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As I struggled to think of the title of for this long due entry, my mind is flooded with the events that occurred this month. There was a wedding, there was a death, there was happiness, sadness and the TV is perpatually stuck at channel 27 (WC Premium) now.

The World Cup began. The game that unites the world. The game that stopped a war temporarily. 11 men per team. 90mins of play. Its addicitive.

I married a girlfriend off. A a true blue Teochew, we were all up at 3am, ready to negotiate a good price for the lovely bride. At 5am, she was in the hands of her husband. Ready to take on the world together. As the bridesmaid help with the entire processions for the day, we made friends and had out own fun together with the best men. It also dawn upon me that I really don;t want a traditional clad wedding. Too much work. Too much customs that I dont comprehend!
But as I finally watch her walk down the aisle towards the Justice of Peace, my lips quivered and tears flowed uncontrollably down my cheeks. My Lynn is getting married!!!!

With every celebration of life, there is a death. One of my former teacher passed away Tuesday morning. After struggling with cancer for the past few years, she finally succumb to it and left to the kingdom of the lord. As I sat at the wake reminisicing old times with friends I havent seen in many years, we remembered her and thanked her for her dedication in our hearts. I also notice that although her family was sadden by her passing, they also showed signs of relieve and thankful that she no longer needed to suffer the pain. That she finally was able to let go and move on. It dawned upon me that death is not neccessarily the be all and end all of things. Death although inevitable, can be a good thing sometimes. And death, can be a celebration of life as well. Thank you Ms Peh. I am really sorry I didn't make the effort to see you for the last time before you go.

贵人

贵人 [gui-ren; pronouce as 'guu-i-ri-en'] : One who gives aid. One who helps. AKA benefactor

I'm sure everyone has met a benefactor at some point in their life. Be it the intelligent but financially poor student who did received a scholarship from a fund. Or the kind lady who always cooks a little extra at home so she can give some food to her neighbour. Or the man whose quick reflexes pull a pedestrain away from a potential accident. Or simply a kind hearted man who feeds the starving neighbourhood cats every evening. Just someone who is there at the right place and the right time to give the appropriate aid needed. They need not be someone rich or famous like Lee Foundation who give financial aid or Oprah Winfrey who travelled to Africa to show comfort to starving children. Benefactors come in all shapes and sizes, all walks of life, all background. It could be anyone. It might just be you.

I hope I am someone benefactor, if not now, I hope I will be. I don't need gratification but I hope I have helped someone enough or will help someone enough that their lifes are positively affected.

I am thankful and grateful to my very own benefactors. Not just the people close to me and love me unconditionally but also those who didn't even know me well. The famous one which I have thanked constently, Alf who gave me the chance, the break. I feel blessed to have met them and from the bottom of my heart. THANK YOU.

Almost a quater of my life crisis

Well, I wouldn't really term it as a crisis crisis.
More of a coming to another cross-roads.

I met my best friend of 9 years the other day and was feeling really bumped because I just had a very insulting job offer and didn't think I was going anywhere in life. So wondered where have our 9 years gone to? We have mutual friends who are very successful to me but she told me that it was not me to be like them. To have my life pathed out and structured. Part of me feels that I am more free-spirited too like she said yet I seek some stability in life?

As I sit across her and sit to her consol and advise me, Im hearten that I have people who loves me and such wise friends I have!

Oh well, I suppose all things will come in time and to those who work for them and I intent to work my ass off.

Bearer of dreams

I love dreaming. Especially when my dreams have sight, sound, colour and taste, plus I always remember what I dream. And I always wondered why some people only dream black and white, why they don't have as colourful a dream as I have and why they don't remember.

Recently I had my first supernatural dream. I meant that I dreamt of a decease relative; my grandmother. Chinese believe that deceased relative sometimes enter their relative's dream to pass on a message, to ask for something or simply to let them know that they are alright. I've never dreamt of anyone deceased before so when I recently dreamt of my deceased grandmother, I didn't think much of it. Not sure whether its actually because I really still miss her or she really came into me to tell me something, but the dream was so vivid.

Dream 1
I dreamt that E-Chiing had passed me $150 (2 $50 bill and 5 $10 bills) and told me to pass it to my grandmother. As I was going to my grandmother's house, I was grumbling at what would my grandmother do with $150, afterall, she was wheel-chaired bounded and its not that she would go shopping and stuff. And even as I passed her the money, I was still grumbling.

I didn't think much of it. But after tell my E-Chiing and my mother. My mother went to the temple and 'asked' my grandmother whether she really need money thats why she came to my dream. And she 'replied' Yes.

Dream 2
I was back at my old house. I had my bath towel around my neck and was going to the bathroom to shower. But somehow, I walked to the kitchen. My old house was such that you will have to go past the dining room to the kitchen and as I was opening the kitchen door, I realise that I had walked to the room place to shower. So I closed the door back and was past the dining room again. But this time, lying in the dining room was my grandmother's coffin. It was like the wake again because there was the joss sticks and the picture and everything. And as I walk past, I actually waved to the coffin and whispered 'Bye Bye Grandma'.

Dream 3
I don't remember much but I had climb down a long long stair case and when I reached the ground floor. I walked towards a table where there was my grandmother's urn with again the joss sticks burning. I picked up the joss stick, litted it and prayed to my grandma.


Whether its a case of my missing my grandma still or not, I'm glad to have such a connection with her. Although we were very close when she was alive, I'm glad to feel that she loves me. And actually thinks about me. I miss you Seng Choon Ah-Ma. Thanks for being an awsome grandmother.

Sa-wa-De-Kaaaaaaa

I still dunno whether females say ka or kap or what. Nonetheless, I enjoyed myself in Bangkok. Althought, I didn't take as many photos as I wanted, I didn't buy as much things as I wanted but I think my trips has been rather fulfilling.

What I did;

Worked
The conference went great. To say it was flawless would be a lie. Of course there were hitches, there were bitches and some serious lack fo sleep but I thought it was all good

Shopped
OH MY GOD!!!!!! I bought so much!!!! Whatever you see below is only for the first day! Im so broke.

I'm a SHINIGAMI

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Love, death and separation.

So many things happened in the month of March I don;t even know where to begin.

Let's see. Gotta start somewhere. Oh well, from the top then.

Work
Hasn't been the best lately. I have tendered my resignation after thinking for a while. Not sure what my next move is, hopefully its nearer to my dream. I am grateful to all my colleagues who have been nothing but friendly and supportive from the day I started work. Well, at least I made a new batch of friends. Good friends I might add.

I will take away from work a valuable experience. One which I have learn plenty from, yet nothing at all. Does it make sense?

Love
Blacks and I have been so busy lately, its crazy. We haven't had much time to spend with each other at all and the times we do, we are too tired for anything. Lets just look forward to a better April.

I have also recently learnt that a girl who used to be my friend has gotten married. Im kinda sad, not because she has gotten married, but we used to be rather close. It is because of love that we arrive to where we are today. We aren't friends anymore. We are not even aquaintence. Just a faded memory.

I also recently met a friend who is pregnant with her first child. I touched a pregnant woman's stomach truly for the 1st time. I have a slight fear in touching their stomach because I always feel that its like a bomb, once i touch it will explode! It was very heartfelt looking at her. Made me feel for once to have a baby of my own?

Death
My Grandma who is 93 years old died 1 week ago. Its the first time I really felt a sense of loss and I broke down during the funeral. Although, I do know that her death may not be the worst thing to happen.

As March comes to a close. I just want to look forward to a better April. Tho it doesnt seem like it.

The miracles of network Television

In this sleepy town of Tanjong Katong, Joo Chiat,used to lie this small little food stall pretty unknown to the whole world. Opened by 3 young man from Malaysia, this food stall sells crayfish noodles and herbal chicken soup. For 4 months or so, since they first open, business was quiet and slow. Passerby came by and was curious about this new dish, tried and left.

Until 1 day, it was featured on a food show on our very own Singapore network television. POW WOW BOW, people came from far and wide. Queues started forming. And this little food stall is not so little anymore.

The power of television. Wow.

Our Babies!

Congratulations to us! Blacks and I have gave birth to 2 healthy babies. Weighing in at 15pounds each, Bobo and Vicky are only a few mins apart with Vicky being the old of the twins.

Feeling bless with 2 god sent, Blacks and Me rushed out to buy carriers for our 2 new born.

Psychic

Remember my first movie blockbuster idea, where a group of men brought their wives on a holiday in the countryside only to kill them so that they can claim the insurance money to be with their mistresses???

I don't believe. Such a thing actually happen!

My new movie idea

K k, I know I havent finish writing my last movie. So instead of trying to write a script this time. I am going to just give the plot and let you guys tell me whether it is a good plot and whether it would be a movie you want to watch. For this movie, I'm leaning towards the Asian cinema...Hong Kong or something.

I haven't thought of the title but a brief idea was to call it;

Beyond Beauty

2 childhood friends, a boy and a girl, grew up in 2 very different environments. They both had lived in the same building when they were kids but during their teenage years, Jake's parents business boom and they moved to the upper side of town. Mindy's parents were blue collar workers who didn't earn much and with 4 children to raise, money was tight and Mindy was forced to discontinue her studies after Year 12. Due to her family circumstance, Mindy didn't bother much about how she looked/dressed and her looks were hiding behind a pair of large plastic frames. Jake, on the other hand, was the only child and his parents gave him everything. Born with model good looks, Jake had an exquisite taste of fashion and was well endowed with the trendiest of clothes.

Even though they grew up in different environment, the 2 friends remain close throughout their lives, meeting up often to catch up with each other. With an eye for business, Mindy started her own pet shop and was doing well. She still dressed like she was stuck in the early 90s and her hair was constantly held up with many 'nuts and bolts' and her looks were still hiding behind those plastic frames. Jake was an investment banker/model/artiste who was enjoying the high life but loved Mindy's company for he knew she was the only one true towards him because she knew him before he got famous.

Mindy had always had a crush on Jake, but he didn't know it.

One day, one of Mindy's close friends opened a beauty salon and invited her over. Jade had been trying to get Mindy to go for a makeover forever but the thrift Mindy just didn't see the need to. As an 'opening offer', Jade decided to give Mindy a makeover herself and it turns out well, she was going to hang Mindy's photo at the shop front.

True to Jade's words, Mindy's makeover was a huge success. Jade not only made over Mindy's face and hair but gave her new clothes to wear as well. Uncomfortable as she was, Mindy thanked Jade and quickly exited the salon. En route home, Mindy bumped into Jake who couldn't recognise her and started hitting on her. Afraid Jake would laugh at her and secretly loving the attention she was getting, Mindy decided not to tell Jake that it was her.

In the months to come, Mindy had to struggle with 2 personalities; Mindy and Mandy. Mandy was the name she gave to Jake for the made over look. While Mindy was shy and reserved, Mandy was more outspoken and extrovert.

Jade was the only one who knew the secret.

Wedding & Marriage

Bridal Gown By Vera Wang.....The queen!

I accompanied a friend today, to the bridal shop that she was going to get her wedding dress from. She had earlier showed me a picture of the dress and after hearing my comments, she decided she bring me to the shop for me to see her wear and give comments.

Well, on the way there, she told me that she would most likely be 'scolded' by the bridal shop owner for going back so many times to try the gown. But girl, you only get married ONCE. Make it right for yourself!

But looking at all the beautiful dress, I became very excited for the day to come when I wear my WHITE DRESS. Just off hand, I think I would like a tube dress, with some diamonte for detailing purpose but a relatively big can can. Plunging back line and no lace.
A few months back I went on QUEEN VERA WANG website to have a look at her designs. Now, I feel that although I think her design philosophy is 'less is more', I think I would like more detailing. I went back to her website today and found most of the gowns quite simple. But I wondered whether it was the models that made me unexcited.

I hope when its my turn i find that perfect dress that fits my imperfect body.

Grow Old With You

I heard this over the radio recently while driving back home from camp. It made me wanna speed all the way home and give you a big, big hug... and the song, its been on my mind since... it kinda describes how I'm feeling about us, so Baby, this is for you.

~~

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold
Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you

I wanna grow old with you

~~

Baby, I want to apologise for not being able to spend enough time with you recently, having to be on Stand by and also training for the evaluation. Please hang in there and I promise to make it up to you whenever I can. Thanks for being so understanding and patient with me. I love you. Muacks.

blacks.

Headline news!

Murder at Hougang Ave 8

Another case of 'body parts' murder has been discovered at the lift lobby of Block 447, Hougang Avenue 8, today. The body of the victim, a white female believed to be a model, was found naked and scattered loosely. Her pelvis and right leg was found dangling off the post boxes. It is believed that the murder has decided to challenged the authorities by this seemingly sadistic joke.

2 civic minded couple found her body on 1st January 2006 while visiting the man's mother at her Hougang flat. The woman still shaken by their finding said that they had notice some 'sitting' on top of the postal box from afar and suspicious, however, it was broad daylight and they didn't think such a balant dumping of body would occur.

The victim's naked upper body and left leg were found in the near by rubbish bin some 2 meters away. The rubbish bin seemed to have been rumaged and the authorities believed that the killer must be been looking for something in the rubbish bin.

No blood stains nor fingerprints were found at the scene. The authorities are appealing to the public to call 1800-Igot-atip (1800-4468-2847) should anyone have any information about the murder.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!

~~*~~*~~HAPPY NEW YEAR~~*~~*~~

to my family, my friends, my acqquaintances and random people who simply just browse through this senseless blog.

I wish for everyone to be healthy and well this year.
I wish for everyone to TAN DUA LUI (hokkien for EARN BIG BUCKS!)
I wish for everyone to find their true romance or at least have a fun filled journey in their romantic lives.
I wish for everyone to find fulfillment in whatever you do ie. work, study, work & study.
I wish for everyone to wake up every morning thinking it would be a great great day...and it is.
I wish for everyone to never have nightmares
I wish for everyone to fulfill their dreams

To my family:
Dad: I wish for you to have more more money!!!
Mum: I wish for you to find your path. To be able to holiday more and play more mahjong where you'll win win win!!!
E-Lin: I wish for you to have your bundle of joy, make me an AUNTIE!
E-Chiing: I wish for you to sing better. To get more job offers that pay you great and to DANCE DANCE DANCE!!!

To my friends:
Jessie: May your route towards PhD goes smoothly.
Audrey: OUVERT OUVERT OVERT!!!!!!
Huiru: May you find yourself, and your destiny.
Lynnette: To always have the exquisite taste in all aspects of life. May you find your ALEX TOH.
Debby: Hmmmm.....I actually dunno what to wish you for....MORE MONEY!
Wendy: To always win at the wordy games
MC: To never be sad, upset, depress and moody. Happy!!!!
Lynn: I hope you can find your true happiness. You deserve it

Love you guys.. All of you.

End of the Year Poem

2005 was really swell
I tried a lot and it all went well
I made new friends who's really cool
I wore a dress that made men drool
Hong Kong, Taipei, been there done that
Blackie's lap is where I've sat
Hong Kong's fun and I love so much
It's so unique there's only one of such
Taipei's great, the food was better
The men, the food, I prefer the latter
To Al, a man, to whom Im so grateful
With him, I never need to ever be bashful
Thanks to him, I went travelling this year
His voice I miss and always long to hear.
The year was fun, guess what I did
Auditions I went and tried to bid
For a spot in show biz, but I didn't make it
Well, at least I tried and love it to bits!
2 army functions I attended with Blacks
So proud of him but something lacks
A smile on his face for he looks so cool
A 'sua-ku' woman beside him's a fool
Blacks and I are still going strong
I know he loves me in a thong
New friends I met and old friendships rekindle
I dined at Jack's Place in the light of a candle
2005 was a great for me from toe to head
I look forward to the 06 ahead!!!

My Year. This Year. 2005

Year 2005 has certainly been one hell'va journey for me. No. I don't mean it in a bad way. In fact, I think 2005 has treated me fairly, actually, it has treated me DAMN F**KING WELL.

Thanks to Guan-Yin-Ma for giving me the strength to step out of my comfort zone and the courage to TRY.
Thanks to my family who has been nothing but supportive towards my choices and been there for me during my down times.
Thanks to my friends who has kept me entertained this year. Thanks to the rainbow/carebear club for initiating my into it. Thanks you to my 3 best friends for the 8 years of solid friendship.

I specially want to thank 2 people here for putting their faith in me this year;
Debs: For your TREMENDOUS faith in me. You landed me my first job and I will never forget it. I kinda wanna say something very grateful like 'You're like the sister I never had", but I can't cos I already have 2 fantastic sisters. But its somewhere along those lines. Just want you to know that I admire your focus and dedication when it comes to work and I look forward to working alongside with you.




Al: Thanks for showing my the ropes. You can be considered my FIRST boss, and even though we had our 'wanting to kill each other' times, you set such a high standard for a Boss that I will find it hard to 'replace' you. Thanks so much for bringing my to Hong Kong and Taipei. I still don't believe you actually believe in me enough to bring me. Well, at least thats what I want to believe.
Love you. Muacks!!!!! Kekeke

Let's tell you what my activities are this year.

Jan-Feb :: Pretty normal. I was unemployed and looking high and low for a job. Noone gave me a break. Noone called me for an interview even. January was the month that Blacks went to help in the relief efforts for the victions of the Southeast Asian Tsunami (26th December 2004). I did 2 days of voluntary work at the National Volunteers Association or something like that. Helping to co-ordinate the efforts here. Although it wasn't much, but I'm glad I could help.

Mar :: I wish I have photos to show, but my PC crashed and wipe everything out. Blacks and I celebrated our 1 year anniversary on the 19th March 2005. As we had dinner, I glazed into the eyes of the man sitting before me and a sense of warmth rushed over me. I am so happy that I found the one. Muacks Babe!

I also got my first full time job, although it was a contract job only. I felt so much ownership to the project, I lived it, I breathed it, I even dreamt about it.

Apr:: Blacks decided to be sweet, picked me up from work on 19th and we re-celebrated our 1st year anniversary because the crashing of my PC wipe all my photos away. Although it was a short night and we din take half as many photos as we did, we had a fantastic dinner date.

April was also a damn busy period for me at work. I hit a rut this month too.....

May:: I WENT TO HONG KONG!!!!!! For those who don't really know me, I am very fascinated by this city that never sleeps. I watched enough HK movies to love it on the big screen and the city didn't let me down one bit! I LOVE IT!
May also marked the end of my first full time job, when the tear down began on Hong Kong MAS, part of my heart tore too.



June: Out of a job again, but enjoyed the break from the hectic working schedule from MAS Hong Kong. I helped out at CommunicAsia for the Panasonic booth.

July:: Love was in the air was Mark proposed to E-lin. Although it was not like the movies, but its not about the romance. Its's about the love. It's about the committment. Congrats!!

Aug:: 'We are Singapore, we are Singapore. We will stand united hear the lion roar.' As we celebrated Singapore's birthday, we had our very first National Day Party. Barbeque and a whole load good company. I also had a surprise call from a guy who ask me back for MAS TAIPEI!!!!

Sep:: I TURN 23!!!!!! 'NUFF SAID.

Oct:: BLACKS TURN 28!!!!!
I attended my first OCS Commissioning Ball and had a blast. Although I didn't eat much, the entertainment was rather lame and didn't talk to anyone else except Blacks, I thoroughly enjoyed myself. And I was so proud sitting next to my man.
Nov:: I started my new job at a marketing communication firm. My first desk bound job. B.O.R.I.N.G

Dec:: CHRISTMAS!!!!! NEW YEAR!!!!